Guess this is where I should talk about myself for a bit so people realize how the struggle is REAL.
I have been heavy for almost all of my life (And this picture KIND OF shows it). And I was okay with that – or so I thought. I used to always have a low self-esteem. I was having health issues. I have struggled through life doing something things and believe that was how it was always going to be. And I had accepted it not realizing the impact it had on me mentally and emotionally.
Then, one day, I had someone express interest in me. And things exploded from there. I had lost some weight and not known it, but because I had such low self esteem, I did things I normally would not have done. And that lead to me getting pregnant. That was a turning point in my life. I started to eat healthier and walk so my baby would be healthy. And from there, I got healthy. Healthiest I had ever been in my life.
I was healthier. I could do stuff I never thought I could before. I could breath better. I had more energy. But mostly, I was more confident. I had self esteem. I was happy. And it was during this I met my husband. He saw me at the height of my health. And he continues to love me as my health went down again. Yup, I didn’t maintain it. I let myself slide, making excuse after excuse on how it was okay. Well guess what? It isn’t.
I am happy with my life, but I am also very tired. I cannot run around with my daughter like I used to be able to. I get cranky and I just want to sleep a lot. It is hard for me to move and I get saddened looking at myself in the mirror when I see how much weight I have gained. But no more. No more excuses, no more accepting this unhealthy me. I want to be there for my daughter. I want to be able to do have energy to do more things. I want to be happy with who I am.
And that requires me getting healthy.
So that is what I am doing. I am not doing it to “Get Skinny.” I am not doing it to become beautiful – My husband tells me everyday that I am. I am doing it for my health and my future. So this is my journey to have energy to do stuff with my daughter. To have more energy to do all that I wanted to accomplish. To be a better me.
And so I thank you for joining me and hope to hear stories from you too.